The surprise to me came at 3:30 am on  a Saturday morning late in  August as a pulsating pain in my lower back. I thought it was a pulled muscle from working in the yard the day before.

As the morning worn on I knew something was wrong because the pain became excruciating.


It was just after 9:00 am when I arrived at hospital emergency to find out what was going on.


Kidney stones was the diagnosis. Now if you have ever had kidney stones you know the pain of trying to pass them out of your system is like nothing you have ever experienced.


They put me on great drugs, what a relief that was and eventually sent me home with more drugs to help me pass the stone.


Along the way the doctor had done a cat scan and told me a growth was showing up on my liver.


Given that I had cancer twelve years ago, I was immediately aware of my stress about what was going on. More about this later.


The teacher had appeared twelve years ago and I did not pay attention. I was taken to my soul and as fast as I could I rebuilt the walls around me to become the man I saw myself as, once again.


Now the teacher has shown up again. This time with more far more urgency, more emergency and more of my life on the line.


It is time to pay attention to what the teacher is trying to teach us.


This is who you are.