“May what I do flow from me like a river, no forcing and no holding back, the way it is with children.” Rainer Maria Rilke Down by the sea everyone must wait for the tide to come in so the boats can go out.
When the tide is out the beach is quiet.
A time to rest before activity.
You also have a tidal wave within you.
It is a natural rhythm that is unique to you.
You have tried to overcome it with odd timing and weird activities but the tidal wave is always there.
Pay attention to your rhythm. It serves you.
All you have to do is let go of what you think it looks like and feels like.
Let it come to you in a few minutes of quiet.
A daily practice of twenty minutes will put you in touch with your natural rhythm.
Then you know when to be active and when you need rest.
Let it be. There is no need to fight it.
This is who you are.