There are times when I spend quiet time meditating, reading, studying and writing. It is a generosity of spirit for myself I did not learn in my family of origin.
It has only been the last few years of my mid life that I have started to pay attention to my own make up, my own beliefs and attitudes and my own wants, desires and vision for my life.
I want to make a difference in my world. I know there are lots of us who do. Yet the world seems to persist in a crazy sort of way pretending that the one with the most toys at the end of the day will win.
So, the intention for your life might be hard to hold onto given all you are involved in. Your generosity flows to your outside world rather than your inner world.
A friend of mine just told me she has a form of leukemia. My heart is touched she would share this deeply troubling journey she now must take to reach some sort of remission.
This encounter engages my generosity of spirit. This is an outward flow of generosity.
I see for all of us there is the inner and outer world of generosity. Each one calling at different times. Each call as important perhaps as the other.
However, without the time and attention to take care of yourself there will be little available for those who ask it of you.
It might be time to engage in some practices that strengthen, acknowledge and access your generosity of your beautiful spirit.
Take Time to Be alone. Take the time to listen to music, read a book, go for a walk all without the engagement of others. It allows for your feelings and thoughts to be with you in a way that you may consider them with your full presence.
Live in this moment. You will have this moment forever but never again. Over and over each moment will present itself as a fresh idea. What attention and awareness will you give it?
Practice. Each day you practice your generosity to yourself it will deepen and grow. The time will come when you will be aware that this is a critical element of what you have to offer the world.
This is who you are.